
Yellow Mama E zine
Issue #114
The Company I Do Not Wish To Keep: Poem by John Grey

Art by Bernice Holtzman © 2026
THE COMPANY I DO NOT I WISH TO KEEP
by John Grey
Between light and dark,
the veil diminishes,
is almost indefinable,
and, by the time my eyes adjust,
there is nothing there at all.
That’s when a face emerges,
from between the parting threads,
patches of familiarity
like the skin of a leper,
eyes in transit
from one realm to another,
pale cheeks,
strains of red hair
like bloody catgut,
and a mouth that flops open
makes a sound
without a hint of throat behind it –
like a bubble of words,
floating in my direction.
popping in my ear—
“help me.”
Between light and dark,
what is not shadow
is forsaken,
what can be seen
will be regretted tenfold.
John Grey is an Australian poet, US resident, recently published in Shift, River and South, and Flights. Latest books, Bittersweet, Subject Matters, and Between Two Fires, are available through Amazon. Work upcoming in Rush, Spotlong Review, and Trampoline.
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Bernice Holtzman’s paintings and collages have appeared in shows at various venues in Manhattan, including the Back Fence in Greenwich Village, the Producer’s Club, the Black Door Gallery on W. 26th St., and one other place she can’t remember, but it was in a basement, and she was well received. She is the Assistant Art Director for Yellow Mama.